Makcik Kerapu

hello again, i have been trying very hard to adjust myself to the life of a working mom and wife. It is SOOOO much easier to live far away from your spouse than living with them. It's been a month, and actually me and husband had a really BIG argument a few days ago that my father in law had to step in to stop things from getting any worse. tiny things might become huge matters if you do not know how to sort and prioritize well. I really do not want get into any heated arguments with my husband while holding my dearest son. I'm afraid it might do him no good. He's a living human, not a plastic toy! People said, babies are like sponge which is why i am avoiding any arguments in front of him. I have been living separated with my husband for 2 years, and we really do not have any issues trusting each other or whatsoever. But things seems to be much more complicated now as we live with his family. The 'culture' in the family itself really doesn't suit me well and

sekadar gimik aje.. tapi begitulah lagaknya anakku semalam. berhabisan meniarap sampai dah macam tergolek-golek pulak jadiknye.. sejak kali terakhir dia meniarap sendiri sebulan lepas, baru hari ni dia meniarap semula. dah berkali-kali mak dan apaknya kena tipu.. bukan tipu apa pun.. ariq menyenget macam nak meniarap tapi lepas tu baring balik berkali-kali. itu la yang aku kata kena tipuuu.. tapi semalam dia buat 'big show' atas tikar oren yang penuh dengan gambar tu.. 2 kali alih, 4 kali golek baring golek baring. Tergelak besar aku tengok kecomelan anakku tu.. Agaknya dia geram orang tak nak angkat dia jadi dia sendiri yang bergerak. Hahaha! Tengok video ni.. sempat aku rakam satu pusingan aksi dia tergolek-golek lepas aku angkat ke tengah tikar semula. Sejak mula bekerja ni aku rasa agak frust. Banyak detik-detik yang aku terlepas. Kalau boleh sepanjang masa aku nak Ariq di depan mata, tapi apa boleh buat.. Kalau tak kerja camana nak hidup dan bayar hutang piutang semua tu?